When something crappy happens to you or your life, it’s always hard to believe it’s for the best.
That may sound weird. Some time ago I had a condition on my fulltime job, that caused me staying at home for about 6 days. It was a huge stress for me, not only because it happened. But I didn’t clearly understand what’s going to happen and how much time I need to restore. Unclarity and uncertainty caused me a lot of worries.
As you may have guessed by now, it was for the best.
Since I really had to disconnect and forget about work for some time, what did I do? Yes, I’ve started painting!
Painting gives me so much love, energy, self confidence, it reminds me why I live, and what I’m here for!
But as many of you, I have a fulltime job, so normally I was painting only on weekends and very rarely evenings of the days when I was working from home. I was ALWAYS in hurry... Painting gives me energy but it’s never relaxing As I have this small piece of time and I need to paint every single idea I have in this head! Believe me, it’s a lot going on inside this blonde head So this stressed out working situation was my very first time, when I had all the time in the world and could really spend an hour on just mixing paints. I finally felt relaxed and almost meditating.
I was working on that mountain piece, and I really could stop worrying: a piece is small, and I have all the time in the world. To finish it or even not!
And during this piece I finally got most of the nuances of acrylic paint that I was struggling with and missing for all those 2 years I’m trying and using it. I’m an oil paint person, acrylic was unbelievably hard to me.
Now I got it all. :) No struggles anymore. I can clearly say that I have no less control in acrylic now than I have in oil, but the difference in years of experience is more that 2 times: I’m oil painting for around 4 years.
So sometimes you just have to trust the universe, that all this crap is for the best. This is something I am experiencing for my whole life. I never whine about troubles: I know this is a dirty and painful path to a treasure mountain and all the best things in the world. 🥰