Just when I thought I was doing okay my obsessive thoughts start to haunt me again. People think you’re okay just because you stopped crying, or you laugh a lot or smile a lot. My anxiety and obsessive thoughts are lurking in the back of my head getting back at me just when I thought I was doing okay. Sometimes, I regret of how I become. Is this the person that I want to be growing up? I thought growing up is going to be so much fun. I always wanted to be an adult when I was a kid. I didn’t realize then just how much pressure that I was gonna get, all the competitions that I am unwilling to participate but I must due to pressures from the society, and how your parents are getting old and starting to become ill. I wish I could run away from everything. I know I can’t. Because this is my life and I have to face it. But, I still wish I could run away. I really want to run away.
This account is supposed to be filled with my happy days, because thats the version of myself that I want to see. But the reality is, no one is actually, genuinely happy. #hanihappydays #lifeisalwaysapicnic amen to that. #35mm #littlechuba